The Story Behind my book.

6 years on..

Let’s take a break from politics for a minute and get to know one another a little better. I have a secret to share: I was the victim of childhood sexual abuse. Not from a family member, but I was abused by a trusted member of the community. As I grew up, the sexual abuse was the North Star of my life. I had a hard time keeping long-term relationships with women. In High school, I was a horrible student and an even worse delinquent. My behavior was off the rails in my early-to-mid teens. I would lose my temper in the drop of a hat and I was a very violent kid. It’s nothing I look upon with any sort of positive feeling. It’s embarrassing. If you knew me in my current incarnation, as a suburban dad who is more likely to be found watching my kids soccer games, you would have a hard time making the connection between thirty-seven- year -old me and fifteen-year-old me. All of my bad behavior culminated in a nearly 2 year stint in juvenile hall I served from age fourteen to nearly sixteen. My entire time in the Department of Youth Services, I read books. Anything from full sets of encyclopedias to Ralph Waldo Emerson. It was the greatest education I could have asked for. Once I got released and went back home, nothing really changed. Until 9/11 happened. I found some purpose in my life in the military. Hell, I would venture to say it saved my life. Living the life of deployment cycles kept my mind occupied. That is why I am so ashamed of what the military is doing right now. Under the leadership of ‘‘Lincoln Project’’ supporter Lloyd Austin, the military has become a cesspool of endless ‘‘woke’’ powerpoints and vaccine requirements that has banished any real, free thinker. It is really such a shame, the military has saved a lot of kids lives. Mine included. I really have no idea what would have happened to me if I had never found the Army. You wouldn’t be reading this. That is for certain.

When I got out of the full-time Army at age thirty-two and went to the reserve, I was worried. I had never had a real job. I had never punched a time-clock. I had no real skills that would correlate to the outside world. I had been in the infantry for the last fourteen years. I went back and started school for creative writing. I had always loved the english language and communicating with people. I was obsessed with books and how writers wrote. It was like the writer and the reader had their own little world together. I wanted to create that myself, with others. The demons were still there, however. I had started to drink heavily to cope with the trauma of my childhood and the succeeding years of war. I had never processed anything, I just moved on. When my wife became pregnant with my first son in 2013, I was still in the toilet. I drank at 7:30 in the morning. I drank at 10 at night. I was out of control. I was suicidal, at time. At others, I was completely rudderless.

One night I had a cold. My head was in a vice and my sinus pressure had me feeling like my head would explode at any second. I fell upon a documentary on HBO entitled ‘‘Have you seen Andy’’ About a young boy who went missing from a pool in Lawrence, Massachusetts in 1976. The boys body was never found, and the story had basically disappeared from the headlines after a few months. The main suspect in the disappearance was a serial pedophile named Wayne Chapman. As soon as I saw Chapman’s booking photo, I knew I needed to find out everything I could about this man, and how he and this ten-year-old boy crossed paths. What I uncovered over 6 years, and thousands of miles traveled to investigate was that the most sophisticated, early child pornography production and trade operation that the world had ever known to that point operated in the 1970’s in Massachusetts. Many men like Wayne Chapman, were low-level foot soldiers in the production business, and sometimes little boys would get hurt in the process. Some even died.

I traced Chapman’s path from the mid-1960’s in New York all the way to Providence, Rhode Island in the early-1970’s. I found all his associates, all mostly child predators themselves who actively worked together to systematically abuse children. Thousands of young lives were shattered in the New England area in the 1970’s because these monsters existed, and to my knowledge, nothing has ever been written in longform about these cases until I got ahold of the story. I found purpose in the story. The investigation took me years, I crisscrossed the country from Montana to upstate New York, and I met so many victims. It was my honor to tell their stories over three-hundred pages.

The story is very important to today’s landscape. There is a dirty little secret out there, bubbling under the surface. The communists want to make pedophilia normal. If pedophiles run free in society, there is no stability. Destabilization is always the goal. If the society is unstable, the sheep will run to daddy government. Just look at the sexually explicit material that is being handed out to children in government schools, all over the country. Kids are being conditioned at a young age that all of this is normal. The regime does not want a generation coming up that is taught to critically think. Critical thinkers could one day question them. They want unstable, vapid vessels they can mold to do their bidding.

There is literally no better way to destroy the minds of children then to expose them to sexual material early in life. I cover these stories in-depth. It is my life’s work. We need to work together to stop them. The book will be available on Substack after the new year. I hope you will read it. The subject matter is awful, but it’s important. We always say we won’t forget, then we forget to never forget.

I never thought I would write a book about crime. I had been a political junkie my whole life. It wasn’t my field, ya know. The story just kept getting bigger everyday I would learn something more. I also looked at how little child -sex predators get covered in the mainstream arena. Its like a dirty secret no-one ever talks about. I hope to break that chain and really make it mainstream. I think the corruption goes a lot deeper than any of us think. Don’t believe me? I suggest reading the book.

Here is me on Darkness Radio talking about the investigation and the book: